Dysfunction

So my bloody birthday is tomorrow. I'm sure I'll have some fun with my friends at my party, but the rest of my day is gonna be how all my birthday's since I turned eleven were: one huge cluster(word that rhymes with "truck"). My Dad wants to see me, which is understandable seeing as my parents are divorced and he hasn't seen me for even one minute since September or October 2009. He said he'll bring me back by 6, and I said I'll check with my Mom. So I come home to tell her, she says I need to be home by 4 because I need to help set up for my party, cleaning and stuff. I say fine, but there's nothing to clean. I've dusted and vacuumed already, and who sets the table for a party? I don't care. Throw it down and people will grab. It's an informal 19 year-old's party, not a buffet line. But not my Mom. She gets angry at me, probably because she's throwing me a party and my dad hasn't done (word that sounds like skit) for us, according to her. And yet, I want to be with him. I understand her point of view, but I'm not sure she understands mine. So my Dad wasn't there when I grew up. So my golden hours with him were sitting in his room, in the basement, watching Star Trek an 10 P.M. because I couldn't see him any other time. You know what that made me? Grateful for any attention from a Father figure that I could get. My Mom is always there for me. My Dad... I need to get in all the time I can. Maybe I've got it wrong, maybe because I can't count on him I shouldn't bother. But I do. I've told this to a lot of people in private, but not in public, so I'll say it now. When my parents divorced and I heard I had visiting days every other Friday with my Dad, court-appointed, you know what I thought? It wasn't sadness if that's what you're expecting. Nope, it was joy. I was happy that I had guaranteed time with my Dad. It saved me a lot of pain. Sad that it went down that way, but whatever. It's done. Anyways, she gets really angry and decides to go for a walk. In the rain. But as a parting jab, she says I can come home at 6, when I would've come at 4 like she said to anyways. Didn't ask, by the way. Demanded. Maybe she'd get better results by being polite. Maybe I'm being hard on her because she's doing the best she can, but she should know that talking badly about my Father won't "make me understand" and see the way she does. I understand all right, but he's still my Dad, court mandate be damned. Her saying be home at 6 guaranteed I'd be home at 4 anyways, she knows when she does crap like that that I do what she said at first. If I don't, she gets angry. If I do, She gets angry. I can't win. And it happens every year. So, as always, happy birthday to me and my truckin' family. Let's hear it for dysfunction. See you on the other side.

Blues

So I finished the lyrics to that song, but I don't have chords yet. I've been practicing my blues scales for it though. I'm waiting to put chords to it until I solder up my pedal, which I ordered the other day. I did design the pedal though. It's gonna be a deep blue with white lettering done in some gothic font, with some clear coat over the top. It's gonna sound (and look) sweet. Other than that, I haven't done anything for this Arts Friday, sorry. Keep an eye out, I'll make it up to you.

Effects

Hey guys. I came across this site for kits to build your own effects pedals for guitars and stuff, and I so totally want one now. There's a Blues Overdrive meant to emulate the Blues Breaker, a really popular (and awesome sounding) pedal by the British company Marshall, and it's only $70! (Plus shipping, and any paint or labels you might want to put on, solder, soldering iron, all that jazz. but right now I'm set.) I'm really hoping to buy one soon, for two reasons (1) geek cred. I mean, soldering together your own effects pedal? Awesome. (2) The guitarist in me wants a bluesy overdrive pedal YESTERDAY, and for only $70 this is a really great deal (that is, a great deal for people who don't mind soldering. See #1.). Jonathan wantz, NAO. The link to the pedal follows: http://www.buildyourownclone.com/bbod.html

[General Update. Have No Good Title]

Not much going on. Finishing up the lyrics to that song, finished hacking my new headphones together (my old ones broke), stuff like that. Read a bunch of books, sharpened my knife, saw Iron Man 2, watched more Pani Poni Dash! on Hulu. All the stuff I'd expect to do in just a few days off. Planning for my birthday, drawing up ideas for a new background, all that jazz. Hopefully the ideas will be done soon and I can start on the end design. See you guys tomorrow.

Redesign: Part Deux

Hello again guys. I've been doing a little bit of work, and really all I have to do now is create a new background. But how's the header? Anywho, don't forget to update your links as the url has changed. See you around.

Redesign

So I decided on a new name, and I'm going to be re-designing off of that. So get ready for some updates. On another note, I just can't seem to stop thinking about the feeling, Ideas, and objects of love. This is getting redundant.

Aurora Wordle Stems From Boredom

The generic wordle for Aurora. I got bored and wanted an easy post.

Lemonade Anyone?

So, my mouth hasn't hurt at all even once since my surgery. Which I think is pretty cool. Also, it's my birthday this month. Also cool. And I made some raspberry lemonade! This stuff is amazing as far as I'm concerned, and I'm sure you remember my last post about it, which was The Grand Lux Cafe. Here's a glass of the stuff:

And yes, those are bits of raspberries along the bottom of the glass. I like it that way. Anywho, I don't really know what else to talk about, so that'll be all.