Refresh

So my brain is just a huge box of nothing right now. I think it's like a defense mechanism when I have too much stuff occupying my thoughts. I started work, Cornerstone in a week, girl stuff, gaming stuff, school stuff, future stuff... So much stuff. I want to just escape it all, you know? Good thing a refresh is coming up, where I don't have to think about anything I don't want to or do anything I'm not willing to. It's gonna be great.

Keep your mind clear, and ride the wave of life; things go better that way.

K

So, I was sitting down having a chat with a friend of mine, who I'll refer to simply as K. Now, K is one of my go-to's for almost everything, except one: relationship advice. We NEVER talk about it, beyond agreeing (or not) about a girl's attractiveness. Why? Well, to put it simply, K has never dated. This is something I kind of took as a fact of life, which is amusing and sad at the same time. Gravity pulls objects toward the earth, friction and resistance are in play everywhere, minecraft sucks up too much time, and K never dates. Imagine the internal riot of laughter (sorry K) when I discover why. K suffers from the irrational belief (and K knows that this is irrational) that if K goes to talk to any girl, that girl will immediately assume that K is attracted to them. And, so, unless they engage K or K has a really good reason to talk to them, a conversation will never start. In one sense, that works great. K is the ultimate player of hard-to-get. However, that's about the only (questionably) good thing it does. I felt like screaming "Just go talk to a girl! Do it!" But instead I simply stated those lines, and we both knew that that probably wasn't gonna happen. It works out in my favor though sometimes, albeit making me feel bad once in a while. K and I will occasionally be interested in the same person, and it's nice to have roughly no competition on that front. Sad for K, but good for me.

E3 & Other Stuff

So here's the skinny (felt like saying that, and will probably never do it again): I am seriously considering getting a Nook touch. A nice, no frills, long battery life ePub reader that's light and small. I still have to test one in person, but I think I will get one. Also, this week is E3, a big conference all about video games. My number one thing to look forward to? The PSVita (the official name for the NGP). Only $250! So have to get one.

Moving along, seeing as Lexa was so dang excited, I'll give a little bit more on that thing from last post. I've officially hit the weird talking stage, or at least that's what happens with me. It's the stage where I worry about every single thing I say, plus how and when to say it. It's really annoying! You want to be smooth and smart and sophisticated and all that jazz, but in your head you think you're a bumbling idiot without the slightest clue. Conversation option comes up? Conversation about said person maybe? Or with said person? Instant brain overdrive over what to/not to do or talk about. Sometimes, I really wish I could turn that part of my brain off. Too dang annoying.

Also, Cornerstone is coming up fast! Set list is still kinda sparse, but I'll find stuff to do.

Recursive

I feel like I always post about the same things over and over. I like a new girl (when don't I?), I just got something artsy done (which I haven't), I think something is cool. And, when I actually do have something good to write, I forget about it or put it off until "later" because I'm doing something, even though my laptop is like a foot away. It's kinda annoying me, and so from now on, I'm going to try my best to post whenever I feel like posting (and sometimes even when I don't), about whatever I feel like posting, regardless of what I'm doing. So, hopefully, you'll be seeing more of me soon.

Birthday - Morning Post

Hello, dear readers. I have been fortunate enough to not have any one burst into my room wishing me a happy birthday while I'm trying to sleep. Yay! For my birthday, I am hosting my own personal minecraft server all day, which started today at midnight. Going to see my dad, then coming back for a party (and might even go to guitar center, though if not today then tomorrow). There are, of course, some people that I want to be there that won't, but some of that fault is mine for not inviting them. I guess, despite being in my 20's, I'm still afraid to take certain risks. Sometimes, I really hate my personality quirks. Sometimes, I feel like they hold me back. Then again, without them there'd be no "me" at all, so I guess I can live with it =)